[encore] 1125: English by Janel Pineda

[encore] 1125: English by Janel Pineda
This episode was originally released on May 24, 2024.
Transcript
I’m Major Jackson and this is The Slowdown.
Over dinner, a colleague suggested that universities were justified in cutting language programs. “English is the lingua franca of business,” they said, “Why should American students study a language they are not likely to use?” For all sorts of reasons, my jaw dropped, my fork hung midair, I was shocked; mainly at the explicit cultural hegemony that informed his perspective.
The Chronicle of Higher Education reported that by 2019, 651 foreign-language programs had been cut from college curricula over a three-year period. I didn’t need the report to witness what I’ve seen firsthand. The teaching contracts of colleagues who taught Italian, Polish, and Arabic languages not being renewed.
This is so different from previous generations of college administrators, who thought that a well-rounded education included the ability to speak a non-English language. To them, the benefits were obvious: second and third languages increased awareness of the human family, enhanced our worldview, made us better thinkers, taught us respect for other cultures, and served as the basis for understanding our history in relation to another.
I thought of my high school French class with Mr. Piagini. Year round, he wore ruffled pants, tweed jackets, topped off with an elegant silk neck scarf. Mr. Piagini gave us our dose of the French Revolution of 1789 alongside verb conjugations. But he also wanted to hear the idioms we spoke in the streets like “fresh” and “dope.” So, language learning for me was grounded in a kind of cultural exchange.
And yet, my childhood friends who learned English as a second language were not so lucky. The challenges of growing up were made difficult by the imperative to speak English. Today’s poem brilliantly figures the psychological complexities of adopting a new language, and a way of thinking, while losing another.
English
by Janel Pineda
It made
its home hovering
around my body
the first four years of my life
Sometimes, it tired
and rested
in my shadow
trailed slimy red and sticky but
always waited
knew my hatred would pass
that I'd find my way to its lap
soon
I'd rest my head on its shoulder
curl up against fragmented bone
and let it dig its hands around my spine
English was patient because it knew
it would win in this country
I wouldn't
be able to resist much longer
Sometimes I can still hear
English's cackling
when at four years old
I proclaimed:
¡No me hable así!
¡Yo no hablo ingles y nunca lo hablare!
Weeks later in kindergarten
I let English reign over
my body
let myself soak in its liquid power
dizzied myself in this winding river made its waters the language I tell stories in
built a home in its classes declared a major in its body
chased it up the Thames to the world's oldest English-speaking university
tossed away Spanish reserved it for Saturdays sometimes
or visits to grandma's
and even now the only Spanish that lives in this poem is faint
memory the
words of a younger braver self
and now I'm afraid
'cause I bet English is sitting
somewhere in this room
clutching its stomach
rolling over in laughter
at how I typed these words
sometimes first in Spanish
then backspaced my return to English.
English laughs
and laughs
and laughs.“English” by Janel Pineda. Used by permission of the poet.


