1110: Blue Hour by Chanda Feldman
1110: Blue Hour by Chanda Feldman
Transcript
I’m Major Jackson and this is The Slowdown.
Didi and I walked around our house one Sunday with John and Melinda from Habitat Connection. They are among a group of people helping to restore biodiversity in middle Tennessee. The nonprofit encourages homeowners to plant native species, to recreate environments that are friendly to natural life forms. Last year, we intentionally dug up our decorative roses and put in the earth plants and bushes that would attract pollinators: bee balm, catnip, salvia, and coneflowers.
We excitedly pointed out our work to date and were thrilled to talk to Melinda and John as to next steps. They are the kind of people who geek out on different species of native shrubs and get excited about bird banding, migratory birds, and one of my favorites, the indigo bunting. We are considering adding more shrubs and trees of differing heights: serviceberry, snow cloud, Virginia Sweetspire.
In the midst of talking about raised beds and converting our backyard lawn into a layered sanctuary for birds, we noticed a lone grape hyacinth just cresting above several blades of grass. We all gasped, having seen it at the same time. We bent low and began cheering it on. Had you been there, you would have laughed at us. With our outsized enthusiasm, our excessive celebration could quite possibly have been a scene straight out of Portlandia.
During my years in Vermont, I looked forward to the annual blooming of flowers. The appearance of new growth during the seasons made me care more deeply about all life: yellow coltsfoot arriving in Spring; early summer’s painted trillium, star-shaped asters suddenly coloring the woodland floor purple and white in autumn. Although about the birth of a child, what I love about today’s poem is how it parallels my growing sense of care for natural environments. When my children were born, their bodies demanded a softness from my body, not to mention a constant attention.
Blue Hour
by Chanda Feldman
Our studio’s slanted roof windows and French balcony doors, broad panes to the sky. I hold you, as my mother who telephoned on those first days says, it’s our tradition not to put the baby in anyone else’s hands for six weeks. In that time, we blink and stare and blink. And through hours, I watch the sky’s blues more like bone, nacre, the blue lace of my foremilk, the new-vein blue beneath your skin, a glossed gray-blue fish, my aqua topaz birthstone, the twilight lapis of the mikveh, the midnight navy of my mother’s handsewn suit, but the iceberg blue in the soles of your feet, as you colic-cry yourself deplete of oxygen, pitch us over the earth, as if we’ve angled from our fifth-floor windows over Paris, delivered, untethered above the chimney pots and apartments, severed from the clocks the city is wound around, suspended until your breathing resumes and blushes out the blue.
"Blue Hour" by Chanda Feldman. Used by permission of the poet.