April 14, 2022
653: Get Out of the Water
April 14, 2022
653: Get Out of the Water
Transcript
I’m Ada Limón and this is The Slowdown.
The other day someone I know posted a quote from the poet Mary Oliver, “Listen, are you breathing just a little, and calling it a life?” And I almost began to cry. I kept thinking of how scared I’ve been, how scared many of us have been during these years of the pandemic. And of course it’s not just the pandemic, it’s so many overwhelming existential fears. I read that quote and I suddenly longed for breath. For relief. For the end of fear.
In today’s poem we see the speaker investigate fear and consequences in a world where danger comes in many different forms.
Get Out of the Water
by Monica Rico
My uncle keeps his birth certificate in his trunk so when he gets pulled over he can prove he was born in the United States. He calls my father to say, They want us dead. Who? All of them. My uncle won’t wear a mask it happened on what day of what month he stretched his hand in the dark of the movie theater and dipped into my father’s popcorn. He ate it all without asking. My father wants a picture of what I look like, bandana around my face. Before I go to the grocery he says, When your uncle went back to the store, the white woman next to him said she didn’t have to wear a mask and they let her in just like that. I’ve had a headache since the pines turned yellow and can’t stop thinking about how frightened I was when my mother took me to see Jaws. It isn’t scary, my sister said, if you stay out of the water. But they don’t, not until a little white boy dies. Then his people begin to believe their vacation might be ruined or more accurately they did not recognize their beach. The horror of Jaws is not the rows of teeth, but the endless sea of white faces who are afraid of losing money knowing the ocean has always been full of sharks, blood, and everything else they cannot see. My uncle can’t picture Adam and Eve were ever naked. He got angry with me as he always does and told me I didn’t know what I was talking about. Were they in bathing suits, standing at the edge of the water go in, no you go in, I’ll go in if you go in. What shark eagerly awaits to breach or keeps swimming and thinks, I know all about you. At the grocery, my bandana falls down when I pull the carts apart. I can hear my uncle laugh, his too many teeth. Hands in my father’s popcorn and across his sleeping face. Next to me, a man has six bags of potato chips, a twelve pack of beer, and eight steaks. I can’t find a chicken. I can’t remember what to buy. Shark attacks often happen in shallow water. I’ve always been the dog, the owner calls for and doesn’t notice the stick floating, not even the electromagnetic field surges a muddy outline of what I know. Rupture the stomach and find the same license plate, milk carton, and arm of the city still wearing its watch.
"Get Out of the Water" by Monica Rico. Used by permission of the poet.