July 8, 2020
423: poem for palm pressed upon pane

July 8, 2020
423: poem for palm pressed upon pane
poem for palm pressed upon pane
by Marwa Helal
i am in the backseat. my father driving. from mansurah to cairo. delta to desert,
heliopolis. a path he has traveled years before i was born. the road has changed but the
fields are same same. biblical green.
hazy green, when i say: this is the most beautiful tree i have ever
seen. and he says, all the trees in masr are the most beautiful. this is how i learn to see.
we planted pines. four in a row. for privacy. for property value. that was
ohio. before new mexico. before, i would make masr
my own. but after my mother tells me to stop asking her what is wrong
whenever i see her staring
out of the living room window. this is how trauma learns to behave. how i learn to push
against the page. i always give hatem the inside seat.
so he can sleep. on the bus. his warm cheek against the cold
window. when i am old enough to be aware of leaving. it is raining hard.
5000 miles away, there is a palm. in a pot. its leaves
pressed. skinny neck bent. a plant seeking light in an animal kingdom.
"Poem for palm pressed upon pane" by Marwa Helal, from INVASIVE SPECIES by Marwa Helal, copyright © 2019 Marwa Helal. Used by permission of Nightboat Books.


